So happy it is Friday. I really look forward to unwinding with Angel on the weekends. Let's just hope it is not a repeat performance from last weekend.
I got my period a week early last night but we still had sex. He did not push it but requested to jerk off on my boobs tonight since I don't like to have sex with such a heavy period. It's a break for me!
He gets embarrasssed about the whole masturbating thing, but I think it is cool. I once had a friend who had implants. Her love toy (she was late 30's he was 18) requested she lift up her shirt.
He actually came right then and there. No touching of anything ! What power the boobs have !
!! Yesterday I watched the movie Shine - I just love my Divo !
I tape movies all day long. Classic movies and movies I just never got around watching or knew Angel would not get into. It was a great movie.
What a shame what parents do to their kids ! It was surprising to see David actually get married at the end. Again, I love biographies.
Scary though another movie with electric shock therapy. Two weekends ago I actually watched One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest from begining to end. Shock therapy.
Medium this week had an episode which showed shock therapy too. Geez, was it that prevelant? I am so scared of electricity I probably had it in a past life !
Had left overs last night. A good way to clean out the fridge. I picked up April at CCD and her intructor was giving her the third degree about taking pix with her phone and mouthing off.
She is such a bad ass and such an atitude. I hope she grows out of this soon. I know deep down in side she is a very sensitive young lady.
She made me pick up Jason on the way home and drop them off at her friend Taylor's house (all of this on an empty tank of gas). I gave Jason the cold shoulder (he took her virginity away and then broke up with her). He tries to be nice and I do like him but f' that!
I pleaded with her not to have sex again for a long, long time. She is just too young. I know she didn't really want to anyway (how could she possibly have enjoyed it?
) She just gave in to the peer pressure which bothers me. Please NO DRUGS EVER ! All of her friends lost their virginity in 6th or 7th grade.
I didn't even know what the hell a blow job was in 8th grade. Someone asked me that's why I remember I didn't. Amanda babysat for another rich family, so I didn't see her.
We watched Survior and the Apprentice. The Apprentice gets such bad reviews but I love it. I worked in Manhattan in the 80's and was a big fan of The Donald.
I was actually in Trump Plaza at one of his signings with Kenny when we were dating and walked right past him. He's arrogant but gotta love that in a man. The opposite does not attract me.
Got up this morning and worked - got paid my wopping $134, how funny is that? lol Came home, fed the cat, drank green tea, ate plain oatmeal, read the paper and did my Soduko puzzle. It was classified as Hard and got it done correctly.
The volume is not working on my TV again and I am too lazy to fix it. I did my Pilates. Good articles in the paper today, one about bankruptcy and new laws, (havne't read it yet - bathroom reading), one about the polution in the Hudson River (don't eat the fish), one about Elio Gonzales (Cuban boy from 5 years ago trying to get into USA mom died custody battle with Cuba - all propaganda - Castro is using the little boy) an article about Oprah's book club selection - A MILLION LITTLE PIECES.
Now, this article expressed the same thing I feel about the book. I emailed everyone and said go out and buy it and read it. Well, this article pointed out that it is not for everyone, which I realized after my email.
The author James Frey goes into great detail about his addictions and how it effected him physically. Very graphic about throwing up etc. Now, some people may get offended (my mom) and just won't get the larger picture.
Addiction is not pretty people !! This is real life and if you can get passed what he ate for breakfast coming up there is a lesson to be learned.
All great novels offend as the article stated. Get over it - open your mind ! Well gotta do housework now.
Cleaning up the house for potential company tomorrow night. Pumpkin pickin' is cancelled due to the rain so I think my cousins are coming over to play poker, which I LOVE ! Angel isn't so into cards but too bad.
He doesn't even know yet about my plans. He will just say we can't afford to entertain but we are always alone just the two of us (which I still love) and I would really like to get to know Derik's fiance. Faith is awesome so far, we mostly just email and only met like 3 times.
She is a witch !! A true Wiccan and has a professional job during the day and on Friday nights she is a SEX PHONE GIRL !
!! Gotta pick her brain.
Now she just had lipo and lost about 150 lbs. Thus proves the theory how stupid men really are. Ya never know who is on the other side on the sex line, now do ya?
?? She has told me about one regular client who has these super hero fantasies !
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lol Probably a wall street executive with a family. Soccer coach living in a beautiful, upper white class neighborhood with this secret fettish. Love it !
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..no sign of fall yet.
By the way I am down to 180 lbs. again. But I feel like I am in better shape with Pilates and Yoga.
Monday I will start doing cardio and no carbs again. Did I mention I was an aerobic intructor years ago? It is very sad I let myself go this way.
Part of me thinks it is a mechanism to keep Angel from being jelous as well as the depression from Annie dying on me. I had a male friend who once said I had the body of a stallion. In fact when Angel and I met he insisted I was a stripper at night.
(did it once actually - don't we all have a stripper inside waiting to rip out of our clothes ?) Also, I forgot to mention - Angel went to his shrink on Monday (he's on Prozac for over 10 years) and what ever she said to him or explained to him about the woman's body helped him. He has been utlra sweet to me and even brought me flowers last night.
(wild flowers from the farm across the street) I know I am rambling but he told me two funny stories about his father. Apparently Angel was mishievous as a boy as him family politely describes him. He put blow up things in his father's cigs when he was a boy.
He said it exploded in his dad's face and almost gave him a heart attack. Also he tied his father's big toe to the bed with fishing line and then woke him up and his dad fell on his face. I said he could have severed his toe !
! His mother also told me 2 stories - once when he was in Cuba his mother was holding his little sister Emily (love her) at the zoo and people starting screaming there is a little boy in with the iguanas. It was Angel chasing theses aligator sized inguanas with a stick.
He thought they were dinosaurs and he climbed over the wall down the pit. (he was about 4 years old) lol Another time when they lived in Brooklyn he put an M-80 in a potted plant next to his Grandmother and blew it up. Soil was all over this poor old lady, on the ceiling, floor etc.
I always wanted a boy, I think they are so amusing. Now I have one and hope he doesn't give me a friggin heart attack like his dad did to his family. (ps - Angel's dad lives in Miami and havne't seen each other in about 40 years) Emily emailed me today and said maybe she will come here next month for a visit (all of his family still lives in Brooklyn - in a 3 aprartment brownstone that his mom owns with her ex-lover Anna - who by the way is taking her to court to get half of after not seeing each other for over 10 years - lesbian abandonment - another long story).
I guess she realizes I am still not ready to see Justine. She is Angel's daughter who just had a baby. That is a long story too for another time.
Spoke to David this morning and he got the apartment. He wants to know why mom is not speaking to him and I said becasue of the nasty message he left her on her answering maching. It really was.
I told him to call her and leave her a message and keep apologizing and stop talking to Mommy and Daddy like he does. I live in the Northeast close to Manhanttan. I love NYC.
Married second time to a very handsome Cuban man for 3 years, which is funny cause I live in an area where I never knew anyone hispanic. We've been together for 5 years. Our only marital problem is he is very jelous and needs sex everyday.
Currently filed bankruptcy due to the fact I left my job to be a full time mommy and we pay his ex-nightmare-wife $450 week alimony. No this is not child support. She just inherited millions of dollars from her father's estate and we are taking her back to court.
Spent about 5 grand on attorney fees so far. Not fun ! I have a restraining order against my ex fiance.
He has not bothered me in 3 years but stalked me for 2 years prior. I still have nightmares. Had one today.
Parents are divorce...
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mother remarried. Father disabled from a massive stroke. Brother is slightly retarded and bi-polar and lives on his own.
I am in charge of him and his bills. My sister is married for 14 years and has 3 adorable little girls. We have never been very close although we do love each other very much.
Just not much in common. Overweight since the death of my best friend 2 years ago, use to be stunning..
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I can say that now that I am fat. She was my best friend and died way too early from lung cancer (yes she smoked). I had just gotten married and had my son when she was diagnosed.
This was a blessing because I gave up my job and took care of her everyday. She literally died in my arms. I still have a lot of anger (towards her family and husband) and alot of sadness that I still deal with on a daily basis.
I will probably loose my mind this month - 2 year anniversary since my Annie died. My Irish buddy. My husband is Spanish so he doesn't mind the chunk a monk.
I wish he did because it would be incentive to diet but I am working on it. I love to read classics biographies and I love to burn CD's. New music, old music, rap, country, 70's * 80's, Motown, head banging, anything.
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I don't use spell check or read my blogs since I would obsess over it. I just go with the flow when I type. I am a stickler for spelling so it is driving me nuts not to.
Was an executive in a company - now technically a school bus driver. Cracks me up to even type that..
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It is a perfect job for a stay at home mom. Recently just cut my hours in half and only work in the morning. I just get so much more done during the day.
Exercise, cleaning cooking. Any comments or questions- let them fly ! Missed yesterday.
It was another beautiful day. Angel went to work late because of the transformer so I had to quick excercise when he went to get his hair cut (I hate working out if front of him and also I don't want the pressure of you are excercising or not) and couldn't blog in secret too. Had an okay day.
I watched From Here to Eternity and sadly was not impressed. Not what I expected really, I thought it was a chick flick. I think Angel would have enjoyed it more than I.
I thought the main character Montgomery Cliff was gorgeous. I always look up old time movie stars to see what their story was and found out he was gay!!
He was the man that had an accident after leaving Elizabeth Taylor's house and had his face all messed up. What a shame! He was also a drug addict and alcoholic and died at 46.
Very sad. Frank Sinatra was okay - "Only my friends call me a Wop!" lol Man, was he skinny.
Montgomery was much better looking. Lost was good but still alot of recapping. I still think they are in Limbo - seven deadly sins or breaking the ten commandments.
I made Hamburger Helper for dinner after all of my masterpieces during the week and it was just as good. I think we will do left overs tonight. Polished off the rest of the potato salad - yummy !
Amanda and I took the baby to the park. I just love her so much. I miss her being a little girl.
I think April quit her job due to the fact she hasn't seen a paycheck yet, she thinks she keeps messing up no set schedule. Plus Cathy Vinnie are just mean people. Vinnie is my ex's brother and Cathy is his ex wife.
I think something is going on there. Strange situation. Cathy is remarried to the chief of police and since Angel and I have married we are no longer best friends.
I think they are embarrassed since I know about their sexual escapades. I truly think they are swingers or at least have orgies. I think they would die if they thought I would tell anyone the things I have seen there.
Well, we have a spider problem in our bedroom and I pulled it apart last night. Lots of webs behind the bed and baby spiders which Angel thought I made up. I swear something bit me the night before in bed.
Gross ! I also found a professional picture of myself which Billy must have thrown back there. I am in short shorts and a bra (before implants but very nice) black boots and hand cuffs.
Man I wish I had that body back. I really need to work on that. Oh, Angel and I had sex last night.
I could have gotten into gotten eaten out but he didn't offer which is unusual. I guess he is sick of being turned down. Maybe tonight.
Talked to my mom on the phone today about David. I really feel she hates him sometimes. My poor brother.
He is just so confused. He knows what he needs to do to get another apartment but his sequence is ass backwards. He has avoided me the last day and a half.
My mother had me look for the Bobby Darin last concert on the internet for Joe's birthday next week. It wasn't too hard to find. Apparently he died after this concert.
I just can't believe they enjoyed it on PBS. Angel and I just laughed cause he looked stoned and drunk throughout doing Elvis dancing and imprersonations and gospel singin' and hootin and howlin'. I love Bobby Darin but man they were wild cats in the 70's.
So entertaining we watched it twice. I still have to get Karen a candle and scratch off's for her birthday. She will be back from VA on Saturday.
I still haven't gotten her mail yet either. I hope she liked the CD I burnt for her! Can't wait until the weekend to have a cocktail.
Hopefully no fighting this weekend. We are supposed to go pumpkin picking with Derik (my cousin) Faith his fiance and Hannah his daughter on Saturday night. I think it is supposed to rain so I invited them here for a little sore with Carli and Fred too.
I just don't think we can afford the makin's for shots of B-52's though for everyone. Oh, I also signed up to take my real estate test next week. Angel took a fit cause he said we coulnd't affor the $60 fee I paid.
I told him to calm down and take it from David's account and we will pay him back. I really need to do this soon and well expect to fail a few times since I haven't opened the book since last Feb when I took the school test which is supposed to be twice as hard. Woke up today to do my normal routine.
Except for the fact I started Pilates. Drinking and eating too much I weigh 183. Oh, well.
Beautfiul day. Not too many warm days left I suspect. Mom called me and we met for lunch.
She told me all about Washington DC, she seems to enjoy the culture that Joe is exposing her to. Not sure if she is faking it or not. She complained about the 5 lbs.
she needs to loose. Now, she is in such good shape and gorgeous. Too many things to type - golf, tennis, personal trainer, etc.
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I gave her the book A Million Little Pieces. Somehow I don't think she will get it - she will probably be disgusted by it and not see the whole picture. We discussed me not wanting the job with Joe and how I have not taken the state test for my Real Estate license.
I told her I will some time this month when I have the money to take it. She is concerned about the baby cause when I went to the ladie's room as soon as I arrived (still coughing) the baby would not even look at her. I tried to explain he is not an introvert but just tired.
(11:30 am is too early for him to socialize) lol. Went to Shop Rite for a few things and came home. Angel came home early from work because of a transformer fire.
So, I started my cooking (potato salad and marinated a london broil) straightened up the house and watched House of Sand and Fog. I still have about 1/2 to go to the end, I paused it to take a nap. Not because of the movie but because of the meds I am still on for bronchitis.
Angel took the baby outside on an adventure to the pond. Woke up and watched a very disturbing Oprah about child molesters. I agree with her 100% - why are these monsters being let out of prison?
I totally emphathize with these criminals because most likely they had a f'd up childhood and probably molested themselves but they should be sent away for life after a first incident. She is offering 100K for tips and conviction of these men. I wouldn't even take the money.
Just so sad. President Bush - when asked a direct question by a female press what the new Supreme Court nominee's stance on abortion is (can't remember her name) he said he did not know - it is not a litmus test. This after he rambled on and on for 5 mins about how he backs her up and how he knows her not only for 10 years but also personally.
He had the balls to say the subject never came up. I still can't believe people voted for this liar. Angel calls him a dictator.
I think he is an insane cowboy ! OH, on a lighter note I made a spectacular chicken dish last night. I researched on the internet chicken marsala and francaise and combined some recipes.
It was mouth watering. Angel and I took the baby to the park for about an hour after dinner. We are back to normal now, held hands, and had sex last night.
Mrs. Palmieri came over last night for about 2 hours. I found out lots of interesing things, like she had an affair on her husband (just died) with a UN offical.
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..she says the "N" word ALOT, she is poor (like me she said) I suspect she was in the mental ward for the two weeks leading up to her husband's death in the same hospital.
So sad. She turns 75 this Thursday. I sent her a card but without a scratch off this year cause she doesn't know how to do them.
It is also Chrissy and John's 14th anniversary. Congrats to them - that is a long time and she is younger than me. Not much to post - which is a blessing for me.
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there is always something around the corner. All throughout the book I remembered my friend Annie who passed away. It will be 2 years this month.
I don't think I will ever be the same. Well, she was clean from alcohol for 10 years when she died and I just kept remembering her struggle and rehab. I just remember her calling me from detox and begging me to pick her up.
She was standing outside and had no shoes on and crying. She kept saying when her brother dropped her off the song Everybody Hurst by REM was playing. I just can't come to grips with the loss.
So after a few cocktails with Angel I just broke down and cried. I don't think I have cried that hard in a long time. Just whimpering.
Needless to say NO SEX. Which pissed him off. The next day I actually apologized cause it had been 4 days now.
Probably the longest we have ever gone. He was very cold towards me all day. So cocktail hour rolls around again.
3 am - we were dancing naked and he wants to have sex. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. So we are dancing naked again and he wants to go to the bedroom.
I picked up my water bottle and put ice in it and that's when all hell broke loose. He flipped the f' out on me. Where is the passion, where is the spontaneity?
I said spontanaity? How could there be any when you DEMAND it, EXPECT it and feel ENTITLED to it every single day? Words start flying and I called him a sexual deviate and said some not nice things about each person in his family who have sexual problems.
Not my style to do that and he was shocked even though he says hurtful things to me all the time. He pulled my hair and grabbed my face. The baby saw it.
That broke my heart. He woke up and saw this mess. It was terrible.
I just ignored Angel and went to bed. The next day, yesterday, Sunday Angel went to work at 1:30 and I stayed in bed until he left. I got up cleaned the house and took the baby to the park.
He came home and didn't say two words to me until Desperate Houswives came on and again asked me if I was seeing someone. I am sick of these stupid questions and told him so. I won't even give him the courtesy of saying of course not.
He knows where I am every second of the day! So, the breaking point was we were watching Breaking Bonaduce and after seeing how screwed up there relationship was we both I think felt exhausted from fighting. I came out of the bathroom and he just hugged me.
Well, he is happy cause he got laid last night...
. Saturday we went and bought the baby his Halloween costume. He wanted to be Spider Man.
The baby stole this little light up thing. I kinda just ignored it until we were in the car. Bad Mommy!
Funny story, we were walking out of the condo and we saw a new neighbor of ours and the baby said to her, this is my friend Daddy, say hello...
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too funny !!!
! Didn't see April all weekend. Amanda stopped by on Saturday.
The called me yesterday. I am glad they are spending time together now that Amanda drives, she take April with her. I think my van is in danger of being repossessed.
We are 30 days behind and I got a desturbing phone call today. We'll see if we get a miracle and get some cash from some where. That's about it.
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